Book Review

Dear blog,


Today I want to do a book review on Erica James novel entitled 'A Breath of Fresh Air'.
I bought this novel on Sept 2015 last year and I honestly didn't like it. It just couldn't keep me interested and took me months to finally get around to finish it.


After tragedy, how do you find love again? Don't ask me, ask Charlotte. Charlotte is the main character of the story. She was too depressing after the death of her husband. I just couldn't understand why she had to be so guilty about Peter's death while the fact that she didn't love him! 
Well, I know somehow she felt guilty because she asked for divorce from Peter and that saddened him. The very same day Charlotte asked for divorce, Peter was killed in a tragic accident. So, Charlotte was feeling overly guilty till she couldn't figure out her own feelings towards Alex. Here comes Alex, the bachelor next door. Nevertheless, they ended up being together at the end. Cliche'. 

I tried so hard to finish this book. I had to finish something that I have started. The book bored me to death. Too many nosy people, and irrelevant characters which I think not helpful to the plot. This however was enough to make me look for another book to read. I had to force myself to read every single pages every night before going to bed. I always find myself reading the novel half way through because this novel lacks excitement and character.

There wasn't anything special or surprising elements about the story. The outcome was predictable from reading the first few chapters. I felt so tired reading this novel and when I finally finished it, I felt so much relief. Now it can sit with the rest of the books on my shelf of disappointment.

Its good to read, seriously!
Happy reading people..

I'm on the edge of glory...

Dear blog,


A week ago, I got my interview call. I'm very happy. In fact, by the time I told my mother about it, she burst into tears. I have been waiting for interview call since four months ago. Quite a long time tho. I don't know how am I suppose to feel now. Even I am happy, I still feel sad and confused. Will I be doing fine for the interview? God knows how I feel right now. The feelings are all mixed up. Dear God, please help me get through this feeling and keep me calm during this month. 

God, I'm screwed!.. No, I'm not! I know for a fact that I'm gonna get through this just fine. How can you be so sure about that? I don't know, really..! I appreciate everyone's endless supply of affirmations about the good fortune that I'm gonna get, but nothing can deny the fact that the Titanic has hit the iceberg and now I'm on a sinking ship! Look, you have no idea what kind of pressure I'm under. Not if I can help myself! I sort of lost my way for the moment. I know there's much to do at this point of time. I feel like I wanna give up!

Being an adult isn't something easy. The responsibilities, the job, financial, everything! Though we have our hard times, true friends always find a way to help you find your way back. I know somehow, my family and friends out there always pray for me for my future. And I'm too, hoping that everyone of us gonna get the best in life. Deep down I'm scared. Seems like many of us have started with the revision. How about myself? hmm.. I know something to be true, that I have limited knowledge about many things. I think I just need to take it slow and listen to my heart. May the sparks of hope shine brightly as I go on with this life.

My daily Routines

Dear blog,

Let me just say that I do like keeping myself busy with house chores and staying at home reading. Sound boring isn’t it? I don’t care. I like what I’m doing. Somehow, this is just the routines that I recently do after graduating from college. Every morning I’ll be doing some chores, having breakfast with my mum, watching tv, doing my fitness workout in my room, lunch break, reading, watching tv again, enjoying the crispy of pisang goreng and air soya with my niece and nephew in the evening, and sometimes I’d go to the mosque to pray. While at night I spend my time with plain old movies and tv series. 

Well it depends on which day in the week, since I’m doing part time job as a teacher at the tuition centre, my schedule is kinda full every Mondays, Thursdays and Saturdays. I like going for a jog every evening at the park. I enjoy seeing people of Slim River doing their fitness routine there. It gives me the feeling of I am part of the community. I seldom going to the gym, coz its kinda expensive. LOL. 

Anyways, that’s just it. My daily routines might change over time to suit my current life.

Thank you for reading.

Are you a morning person or a night person?

Dear blog,

Well it depends on my mood. Whenever I feel like waking up in the morning, I’ll consider myself as a morning person. Hihi. Mostly I can say that I am a night person becoz I always stay up late at night doing my stuff such as listening to music, watching rerun of the TV series I have in my laptop or even reading some novels. Sometimes I like to go out with my friends and enjoy the chit chatting at the mamak restaurant. I rarely go to sleep before 1.00am.

Sometimes I am a morning person, really. I try to do important task in the morning because I can think best at that time. By afternoon, I normally feel a bit drowsy and begin to slow down. During the evening, I enjoy watching the sunset. When the sun sets, it gives me some sort of weird feeling that the day is complete and makes me think of whether I have done something good or otherwise. I’d think about my life, my mother, my family, myself of course and what will I do for the next day onwards.

So, that’s it. I don’t care if I’m a night or morning person, because the time doesn’t determine who I really am. It is the way I carry myself at any time and do the best that I can for the day to make it meaningful. 

A catch of breath... pheww!

Dear blog,

Holly wow...!! I have been away for quite a long time already.
Now I'm back.. wee hoo.. Though I have been thru so many things these few weeks I still dont have the idea to talk any of those things here.

Well lets recall back what  I have done on Dec.
Hurm.. oh ya.. I kena demam campak... hello... I almost forgot about that..
Chicken pox.. yeah it was a chicken pox... Now im living with scarss... for the rest of my life..
I thought dah kena before this tak kena dah.. at the age 23 pulak kena once again.. now terima lah kau padahnye scars everywhere on my body.. paling serik tu on my face! wuarghhh...
Dalam pada tu pun, there is this guy who really nice to me, belanja me with one bottle of Azanis scar serum... well I've been using the serum for two months already.. and the results are really not satisfying... masih ade lagi scars yg susah nak hilang.... isk isk isk... sedihh! but never mind... I dont care though... bersyukur lah masih banyak lagi nikmat Allah bagi...so that was it.

Happy New Year 2016!!!

Two weeks after I recovered from chicken pox, I merajinkan diri involve with hmmm... kem ibadah... well it was organised by this PARTY, well you know what, so nak jadikan cerita., I was one of the facilitators... Im glad to be part of the team who really contributed so many things.. in fact, I was the one who type the kertas kerja for them.. Alhamdulillah... syukur.. with the knowledge I gained from IPG, I manfaatlkan segalanya and it was truly wonderful to really be part of the team. The actual life punya team. Khidmat pada masyarakat la ni... huhu

During this time, many of us already have been interviewed by SPP, but not us who SK tagging...
Rezeki belum sampai la tu.. so I wait and pray harder everyday... So daripada tak buat apa, I menyahut seruan this teacher, who runs a tuition centre here in SR, she asked me whether I could help her to teach at the tuition center. I said yes. So that was it, bermulalah kerjaya I as a tuition teacher. For the time being I work there and doing some tutorial at home for English and Maths.
The parents here are very eager to send their kids to me. Haha,.. Well, I just need to say Alhamdulillah for this opportunity,.. I hope I can do the best for them. Insyaallah..

To tell you the truth, its really hard to adjust myself at home after graduation. before this, asyik rindu rumah je kan.. now, nah amik kau... you sit and berkarat kat rumah... well biasa la tu, been at home for several months dah, miss college life so badly, wanting to be in class listen to lectures.. aawwhh.. how I miss those moments. I try my best to stick to my plans and objectives before I got my posting. Another phase of life is coming... asking myself whether or not Im ready with upcoming challenges in life. Can I survive?? haha wait and see. 


Another matlamat that I seldom say it here is, I wanted to be fit and healthy. I've been jogging and going to the gym for the last couple of months and now I try to make it as a routine. Sitting at home is a great challenge since I got all famish looking at the food. sooo tempting...As I always say to myself, if you wanna get fit and healthy, you must work your butt off.. nobody gonna do it for you! So why giving up so easily? your body is your business. Get out there and start digging your but off the ground bitch! haha...

Thats all for today's post, catch me again next time...

Toodles!

I'm here November

Dear blog,



I'm here November!
The best thing in my life is being myself. I feel great when I'm being myself. I know you'd feel the same.
Since I'm home for internship, I kinda bored and trying my best to fit in with the new situation. Well, I kinda develop new habits and routines...
Just that now I'm more realize about myself and the world around me. And because of that, I learn something new and reminding myself with some good values. So, here's the thing, I learn to admit when I'm wrong. Accepting our mistakes and our flaws is a crucial part of getting older and understanding that we aren’t perfect. You aren’t perfect. We all are! Nothing is perfect. Life is easier when you accept it for the hot mess it is and the hot mess you are.

Next, I learn that I can't do everything. we have limitations. When you’re in college or fresh out, you have all of these opportunities readily available, and you want all of them. Why be one thing when you grow up when you can be seven? But eventually, you’re going to have to decide what you want to be for the rest of your life and commit to what’s truly important. It sounds terrifying, and it is. But you get the best gift out of it: discovering yourself.

Hope to be good every day. 

Talk again sooner..!

Stressed out!

Dear blog,

Today, um.. no yesterday was my nightmare at school. Was it me or them?
I just don't know. Its hard to say no to people when they ask me for help. so that was it. sometimes people can go overboard by ordering this and that. Im not a servant, okay!

Edge of life

Dear blog,
I have just completed my one month internship at that school. I feel very much relief though I still have few more weeks to go for intern.
Being at home is a different feeling than being at college. I just couldn't believe it that I have gone thru 5 years of training in that institute. Life if so much different today. Gotta start thinking about future, work, money, cars, n all sort of living requirements.. I'm an adult. I have grown up! Sob sob...
I'm glad that I kept myself busy with works and some projects at school.
Now that I already finished two projects which are the national sports day's senamrobik, and English interactive board. Wish I could upload the pics here, but now my handphone is in a bit of predicament the moment. Maybe on the next post I'll post the pics together with the descriptions. Anyways, wish me luck for the upcoming spp interview! Gonna break the leg before its started.

Talk again soon., bye..

I'm a Teacher

I'm a teacher.............. 
Behind that doctor, 
Is me, a teacher........... 

Behind that economist, 
Is me, a teacher.......... 

Above those astronomers,Is me, a teacher..............

I carry the light even though they mostly make jokes of me........... 

But I am a teacher........ 

I don't qualify for a RDP house nor earn enough to buy an expensive one.............

But yes, I am a teacher...........

Some think or even say that I have too many holidays, never knowing that I spend those holidays either correcting papers or planning what and how I'm going to teach when i go back to school........ 
Because I am a teacher.., 

sometimes I get confused and even get stressed by the ever changing policies by the politicians who have political powers over what and how I have to teach....... 

Despite all that I am a teacher and I have to teach and i'm teaching.............

On pay days I don't laugh as others do, but by the next day I have to come with a smile to those that I teach........... Because I'm a teacher.........

 The main source of my satisfaction is when I see them growing, succeeding, having all those assets, bravely facing the world and its challenges,  
and i say yes I've taught in spite of living in a world opened by Google.. 

Because I am a teacher............
Yes I am a teacher........ 
It doesn't matter how they look at me, 

it doesn't matter how much more they earn than me, 

it doesn't matter that they drive while I walk
because all what they have is through me, a teacher.. Whether they acknowledge me or not......  

I am a teacher...........  


Pass this to all the teachers n make them proud  of their career.
Dedicated to all the amazing teachers.....

Teachers ...... always be proud 
...... Proud to be a teacher 

At school for internship

Dear blog,

I have not been writing anything since the last post. I am very much sorry for that. 
After a long and tiring years of hardship and bloodbath of study, I have finally come to an end of my degree studies. Five and a half years done! completely. Alhamdulillah. Thank you to Allah for the barakah and health He's been blessing me for all these years, I have done my best to be the best that I could. My family especially to mother who had gone through many struggles and hardship in life to earn our living and to support my studies. Anyway, I'm grateful. 
Now that I've slowly entering the working world, the feeling is different. Internship is just a gateway for me to take a glimpse of how the working world will look like. 
Before we all gone back to our hometown, we hanged out for the last time and I feel very sad as time goes by very fast. I regret not to spend time with my friends while we had time before. 
I hope one day we could see each other as one piece. I will be missing them so much. 
I don't want to recall every sweet and sour moments we had together yet. I'll keep it for the next entry.
Now I need to finish my work as the internship period will soon  come to an end. The file and others stuffs like the paper work must be ready in the file. 

Just I need time to motivate myself at the moment.
Someone told me that if I get into a stressful condition, imagine I hold a glass of water. A glass of water won't be too heavy if I hold it just for awhile. However, if I hold it for too long, a glass of water will caused me pain on the arm and it will started to feel more heavier. If I hold it for too long, my hand will go cramp..numb and hurt painfully. Similarly to the stress. If I think of the problem or the pressure for too long, I will feel burden and painful. So think of it for awhile and move on. Let it go. DOn't let it overwhelmed myself. I will go crazy if I think too much. The best thing is to release it and don't ever think about it. Think of a solution, think of something that can make me happy and carry on my life. 

I got to psyche myself to positive thinking to attract positive vibes and energy. Prayer is important when I'm down. If I see positive things in negative comments, then 3/4 of the battle is won!!
Always tell myself no matter where I go, there will be problem and difficulties especially in working life as I will be spending time working. So the only way is to be resilient and positive to myself so that when I feel down I still can bounce back!

"aut neca aut necatus eris"

Dear blog,



Murder or be murdered. That is the title for today's post. 
I'm kind of a mess. I think I need to take some time to reintroduce myself to myself. I just finished being somebody's lover and that didn't really work out. And now I'm running off to be somebody's lover. Seems to me I need to take a little breather. This person is playing me. I know it all along. Everyone is replaceable. How could you do this to me? All I've ever wanted is for us to be great and be a part of something special. I guess everything in this world is worth trying and even I couldn't stand a chance to be worthy to all the things. But that's okay, I learn from my experience. 

Things happen for a reason. What most important thing now is I need to focus on my final semester and do the best for myself. I have come all the way long from the beginning I try so hard to find myself and the true meaning of life. Now that I have come to my senses and I've gone through some sort of transition state in life and am about to complete it. Hope to see nice things in future as well as meeting a lot more good people who will bring the best in me.

Salam Ramadhan Al Mubarak...