Stressed out!

Dear blog,

Today, um.. no yesterday was my nightmare at school. Was it me or them?
I just don't know. Its hard to say no to people when they ask me for help. so that was it. sometimes people can go overboard by ordering this and that. Im not a servant, okay!

Edge of life

Dear blog,
I have just completed my one month internship at that school. I feel very much relief though I still have few more weeks to go for intern.
Being at home is a different feeling than being at college. I just couldn't believe it that I have gone thru 5 years of training in that institute. Life if so much different today. Gotta start thinking about future, work, money, cars, n all sort of living requirements.. I'm an adult. I have grown up! Sob sob...
I'm glad that I kept myself busy with works and some projects at school.
Now that I already finished two projects which are the national sports day's senamrobik, and English interactive board. Wish I could upload the pics here, but now my handphone is in a bit of predicament the moment. Maybe on the next post I'll post the pics together with the descriptions. Anyways, wish me luck for the upcoming spp interview! Gonna break the leg before its started.

Talk again soon., bye..

I'm a Teacher

I'm a teacher.............. 
Behind that doctor, 
Is me, a teacher........... 

Behind that economist, 
Is me, a teacher.......... 

Above those astronomers,Is me, a teacher..............

I carry the light even though they mostly make jokes of me........... 

But I am a teacher........ 

I don't qualify for a RDP house nor earn enough to buy an expensive one.............

But yes, I am a teacher...........

Some think or even say that I have too many holidays, never knowing that I spend those holidays either correcting papers or planning what and how I'm going to teach when i go back to school........ 
Because I am a teacher.., 

sometimes I get confused and even get stressed by the ever changing policies by the politicians who have political powers over what and how I have to teach....... 

Despite all that I am a teacher and I have to teach and i'm teaching.............

On pay days I don't laugh as others do, but by the next day I have to come with a smile to those that I teach........... Because I'm a teacher.........

 The main source of my satisfaction is when I see them growing, succeeding, having all those assets, bravely facing the world and its challenges,  
and i say yes I've taught in spite of living in a world opened by Google.. 

Because I am a teacher............
Yes I am a teacher........ 
It doesn't matter how they look at me, 

it doesn't matter how much more they earn than me, 

it doesn't matter that they drive while I walk
because all what they have is through me, a teacher.. Whether they acknowledge me or not......  

I am a teacher...........  


Pass this to all the teachers n make them proud  of their career.
Dedicated to all the amazing teachers.....

Teachers ...... always be proud 
...... Proud to be a teacher 

At school for internship

Dear blog,

I have not been writing anything since the last post. I am very much sorry for that. 
After a long and tiring years of hardship and bloodbath of study, I have finally come to an end of my degree studies. Five and a half years done! completely. Alhamdulillah. Thank you to Allah for the barakah and health He's been blessing me for all these years, I have done my best to be the best that I could. My family especially to mother who had gone through many struggles and hardship in life to earn our living and to support my studies. Anyway, I'm grateful. 
Now that I've slowly entering the working world, the feeling is different. Internship is just a gateway for me to take a glimpse of how the working world will look like. 
Before we all gone back to our hometown, we hanged out for the last time and I feel very sad as time goes by very fast. I regret not to spend time with my friends while we had time before. 
I hope one day we could see each other as one piece. I will be missing them so much. 
I don't want to recall every sweet and sour moments we had together yet. I'll keep it for the next entry.
Now I need to finish my work as the internship period will soon  come to an end. The file and others stuffs like the paper work must be ready in the file. 

Just I need time to motivate myself at the moment.
Someone told me that if I get into a stressful condition, imagine I hold a glass of water. A glass of water won't be too heavy if I hold it just for awhile. However, if I hold it for too long, a glass of water will caused me pain on the arm and it will started to feel more heavier. If I hold it for too long, my hand will go cramp..numb and hurt painfully. Similarly to the stress. If I think of the problem or the pressure for too long, I will feel burden and painful. So think of it for awhile and move on. Let it go. DOn't let it overwhelmed myself. I will go crazy if I think too much. The best thing is to release it and don't ever think about it. Think of a solution, think of something that can make me happy and carry on my life. 

I got to psyche myself to positive thinking to attract positive vibes and energy. Prayer is important when I'm down. If I see positive things in negative comments, then 3/4 of the battle is won!!
Always tell myself no matter where I go, there will be problem and difficulties especially in working life as I will be spending time working. So the only way is to be resilient and positive to myself so that when I feel down I still can bounce back!