I'm here November

Dear blog,



I'm here November!
The best thing in my life is being myself. I feel great when I'm being myself. I know you'd feel the same.
Since I'm home for internship, I kinda bored and trying my best to fit in with the new situation. Well, I kinda develop new habits and routines...
Just that now I'm more realize about myself and the world around me. And because of that, I learn something new and reminding myself with some good values. So, here's the thing, I learn to admit when I'm wrong. Accepting our mistakes and our flaws is a crucial part of getting older and understanding that we aren’t perfect. You aren’t perfect. We all are! Nothing is perfect. Life is easier when you accept it for the hot mess it is and the hot mess you are.

Next, I learn that I can't do everything. we have limitations. When you’re in college or fresh out, you have all of these opportunities readily available, and you want all of them. Why be one thing when you grow up when you can be seven? But eventually, you’re going to have to decide what you want to be for the rest of your life and commit to what’s truly important. It sounds terrifying, and it is. But you get the best gift out of it: discovering yourself.

Hope to be good every day. 

Talk again sooner..!

Stressed out!

Dear blog,

Today, um.. no yesterday was my nightmare at school. Was it me or them?
I just don't know. Its hard to say no to people when they ask me for help. so that was it. sometimes people can go overboard by ordering this and that. Im not a servant, okay!

Edge of life

Dear blog,
I have just completed my one month internship at that school. I feel very much relief though I still have few more weeks to go for intern.
Being at home is a different feeling than being at college. I just couldn't believe it that I have gone thru 5 years of training in that institute. Life if so much different today. Gotta start thinking about future, work, money, cars, n all sort of living requirements.. I'm an adult. I have grown up! Sob sob...
I'm glad that I kept myself busy with works and some projects at school.
Now that I already finished two projects which are the national sports day's senamrobik, and English interactive board. Wish I could upload the pics here, but now my handphone is in a bit of predicament the moment. Maybe on the next post I'll post the pics together with the descriptions. Anyways, wish me luck for the upcoming spp interview! Gonna break the leg before its started.

Talk again soon., bye..

I'm a Teacher

I'm a teacher.............. 
Behind that doctor, 
Is me, a teacher........... 

Behind that economist, 
Is me, a teacher.......... 

Above those astronomers,Is me, a teacher..............

I carry the light even though they mostly make jokes of me........... 

But I am a teacher........ 

I don't qualify for a RDP house nor earn enough to buy an expensive one.............

But yes, I am a teacher...........

Some think or even say that I have too many holidays, never knowing that I spend those holidays either correcting papers or planning what and how I'm going to teach when i go back to school........ 
Because I am a teacher.., 

sometimes I get confused and even get stressed by the ever changing policies by the politicians who have political powers over what and how I have to teach....... 

Despite all that I am a teacher and I have to teach and i'm teaching.............

On pay days I don't laugh as others do, but by the next day I have to come with a smile to those that I teach........... Because I'm a teacher.........

 The main source of my satisfaction is when I see them growing, succeeding, having all those assets, bravely facing the world and its challenges,  
and i say yes I've taught in spite of living in a world opened by Google.. 

Because I am a teacher............
Yes I am a teacher........ 
It doesn't matter how they look at me, 

it doesn't matter how much more they earn than me, 

it doesn't matter that they drive while I walk
because all what they have is through me, a teacher.. Whether they acknowledge me or not......  

I am a teacher...........  


Pass this to all the teachers n make them proud  of their career.
Dedicated to all the amazing teachers.....

Teachers ...... always be proud 
...... Proud to be a teacher 

At school for internship

Dear blog,

I have not been writing anything since the last post. I am very much sorry for that. 
After a long and tiring years of hardship and bloodbath of study, I have finally come to an end of my degree studies. Five and a half years done! completely. Alhamdulillah. Thank you to Allah for the barakah and health He's been blessing me for all these years, I have done my best to be the best that I could. My family especially to mother who had gone through many struggles and hardship in life to earn our living and to support my studies. Anyway, I'm grateful. 
Now that I've slowly entering the working world, the feeling is different. Internship is just a gateway for me to take a glimpse of how the working world will look like. 
Before we all gone back to our hometown, we hanged out for the last time and I feel very sad as time goes by very fast. I regret not to spend time with my friends while we had time before. 
I hope one day we could see each other as one piece. I will be missing them so much. 
I don't want to recall every sweet and sour moments we had together yet. I'll keep it for the next entry.
Now I need to finish my work as the internship period will soon  come to an end. The file and others stuffs like the paper work must be ready in the file. 

Just I need time to motivate myself at the moment.
Someone told me that if I get into a stressful condition, imagine I hold a glass of water. A glass of water won't be too heavy if I hold it just for awhile. However, if I hold it for too long, a glass of water will caused me pain on the arm and it will started to feel more heavier. If I hold it for too long, my hand will go cramp..numb and hurt painfully. Similarly to the stress. If I think of the problem or the pressure for too long, I will feel burden and painful. So think of it for awhile and move on. Let it go. DOn't let it overwhelmed myself. I will go crazy if I think too much. The best thing is to release it and don't ever think about it. Think of a solution, think of something that can make me happy and carry on my life. 

I got to psyche myself to positive thinking to attract positive vibes and energy. Prayer is important when I'm down. If I see positive things in negative comments, then 3/4 of the battle is won!!
Always tell myself no matter where I go, there will be problem and difficulties especially in working life as I will be spending time working. So the only way is to be resilient and positive to myself so that when I feel down I still can bounce back!

"aut neca aut necatus eris"

Dear blog,



Murder or be murdered. That is the title for today's post. 
I'm kind of a mess. I think I need to take some time to reintroduce myself to myself. I just finished being somebody's lover and that didn't really work out. And now I'm running off to be somebody's lover. Seems to me I need to take a little breather. This person is playing me. I know it all along. Everyone is replaceable. How could you do this to me? All I've ever wanted is for us to be great and be a part of something special. I guess everything in this world is worth trying and even I couldn't stand a chance to be worthy to all the things. But that's okay, I learn from my experience. 

Things happen for a reason. What most important thing now is I need to focus on my final semester and do the best for myself. I have come all the way long from the beginning I try so hard to find myself and the true meaning of life. Now that I have come to my senses and I've gone through some sort of transition state in life and am about to complete it. Hope to see nice things in future as well as meeting a lot more good people who will bring the best in me.

Salam Ramadhan Al Mubarak... 

Some valuable reflection

Dear blog,

I have gone through two phases of practicums and now I am about to finish my third phase of practicum session. My first practicum was at SK Raja Di Hilir Ekram while my second practicum was at SK Tanah Hitam, Ipoh. My third practicum school is at SK Tun Dr Ismail, which is located in Padang Rengas. Teaching experience differs every time I enter the class. I have gained many experiences especially in teaching and learning of English language. The time that was spent with the pupils was more than inspiring but truly wonderful.  My cooperative teachers did more than enlighten me on the important roles of becoming a good English language teacher; they opened up a whole new perspective on the many rewards and experiences that teaching children can have on me and how I can affect them during some of the most important years of their lives. 

Reminisce the memory of teaching and producing...

This 'Read Me' box is for the collections of pupils' work 

such as books, journals, scrapbooks and the like.

I paste it in front of the class to ease the pupils and teacher to have a look.

Although I got the chance to teach pupils of year 2 again for my third practicum, the feelings and experiences are different. I did not expect to gain as much experiences or inspiration in this teaching field during the practicum periods.  During the practicum periods, I was able to see how the pupils respond towards me as a teacher. With 35 pupils to 21 pupils in the class, I was able to spend more quality time with each and every one of them, and getting to know each of their unique personalities.  

'The Party Boy' is a simple story book I made to encourage pupils to write and produce creative art work. Learning to write a story book and instill awareness of loving arts and literature..

See how committed they are with their works 

and thru such activity, they learn to work as a group.. 

During the practicum sessions, and some other hours of active involvement with the primary school pupils, I had the chance spending teaching other classes during the relief hours. The pupils were more than eager to learn and cooperative as well. Throughout the lessons that I have been teaching for the past practicums, I feel very much happy as I learn so many things especially to experiment with all the techniques and approaches in teaching. My cooperative teacher enjoyed my lesson as well and provided me with more than enough positive feedbacks.

The most memorable part of this teaching experience was my language arts classes. I was surprised by how well the lessons went and again, I had a great bunch of pupils who did a great job, listened well, and commented on how much fun they had in the end. I feel that it is important that pupils not only learn through fun activities, but they managed to understand the language inputs that were being taught. It is also important that we set our goals as teachers to get students physically active and the more ways we find to make physical activities motivating and fun, the greater chance we have at reaching that goal.  This course practicum did what it is supposed to do, by providing me with a great positive learning experience and chance to see how rewarding a students’ achievement and happiness can do for me as a future educator.  

^^

ENGLISH CAMP, WHIZ KIDZ! 2015

Dear blog, 

Around 135 students had the opportunity to attend a one day English camp held at SK Clifford, in Kuala Kangsar Perak on March 28, 2015. The English language camp was sponsored by Institut Pendidikan Guru Kampus Ipoh and the camp was made possible due to support from SK Clifford, Pejabat Pendidikan Daerah Kuala Kangsar (PPD) as well as other schools in Kuala Kangsar. The goals of the camp were to attract the students to learn English language, to enable to students to participate in language activities which also provide leadership training for students.  They get the chance to learn how to lead a team. They learn organisational skills such as planning and problem solving, all of which the classroom situation may be unable to provide. Additionally, the camp was aimed to promote a meaningful interaction and provide platform for students to use English language in communication effectively.

                

The camp’s activities were varied throughout the one whole day with check points stations, action songs competition, gallery walk, telematch, and amazing race. Fun icebreaking session with creative English language building challenge which one of it was creating group cheers. The amazing race was fun as the students enjoyed the tasks and tricky clues which kept them stimulated until the end of the game.  Other check points stations which encompassed with interesting activities such as ‘broken-telephone’, ‘junior master-chef’, ‘spell it right challenge’, ‘talentime’, ‘puppet show’ and many others. Camp participants included 135 students, ages ranging from 11-12 years old, from 19 primary schools around the Kuala Kangsar district. The English camp committee members enjoyed tremendous support among the school teachers and has attracted many students to join. Apart from that, the camp also was giving out prizes for all the participants. Many teachers and lecturers from IPG Kampus Ipoh came to support the program that day. Each participant was given two certificates of appreciation from IPG Kampus Ipoh and PPD for their participation.

Based on the positive feedback from participants and the begging and pleading for more time at camp, the president of the language camp concluded that their goals were successfully met.   A big thank to the program adviser Puan Lizarose Abdullah for her dedication and for all the trainee teachers as well as the school teachers for their hard work and dedication towards the achievement of the English camp. It is hope that more English camp like this to be held and more students to join it for an exciting time next year. 

^^

Kinda Worried Actually.....

Dear blog,

Am just being the type of student who I always been. Always in busy and stress moment. When talking about my academic behaviour, I always try to strive for the best and work best with fussy and committed friends and lecturers. Though my works seem not to be the very best, I always try to be perfect and work hard for everything I do.

Its all part of learning.! People sometime find it difficult to work with me as I have my own expectations and standard. But please don't stress the hell out of me.! Im just being me and sometimes I find it hard to nail at my work frame.. 

I always look up to those who work hard and the egoistic type of working machine, Like what people say, if you don't have a clean coin then don't even think of cheering yourself a can of soda!

Talk again soon....

Toodles!

Has it really been that long?

Dear blog,

Holy Wow!  I just looked at the date of my last post and cannot believe it has been that long.  I have officially been a blog slacker.  No reason in particular except that I haven't been able to come up with anything exciting to write about.  I haven't been on any adventures in months.  

I guess you could say other things have gotten in the way of life. Even I did not update anything yet so far in this blog, but I keep my facebook update from time to time. I had taken quite a number of pictures but I'm lazy to share any in here. 

Now I'm in my practicum period for three months at SK Tun Dr Ismail, Padang Rengas. My partner and I just got moved into the house about 3 weeks ago.  Work is good... I LOVE my job!  School is keeping me really busy.  I was very happy about my last semester grades even though I didn't get included on the deans list.  This semester, however, is a different story. I really hope that I will survive the three months practicum and plus, I need to submit my proposal after the mid term break. I am working hard and hoping I can improve on my teaching skills. Besides, I need to improve on my study skills that before the end of the semester, which leaves me about few more weeks to prepare for exams. 

I enjoy living in the new small town, and like that my drive to work is now less than 3 minutes instead of an hour.  However, I miss my sister and family. I am just glad that I didn't move so far away that it would be hard to see them on a regular basis.  

I need to get back to my works now, but promise I will be back a lot sooner.