Getting ready for any circumstances

Dear blog,

Ready? Am I ready? I simply don't know. 

Been in IPG Ipoh almost 2 years and a half, still I have this in my mind. Am I ready? ouh for God sake, aku memang kurang bersedia. Life getting tougher yet more interesting. Next year dah start praktikum. Jangan cakap next year, this semester I will be facing SBE again and I need to teach the kids songs and poetry, kalau tak silap la. Hurm...What am I gonna do? so much questions in my mind right now. Time untuk enjoy dah berakhir...now have to focus on kerjaya sebagai pendidik pulak. The thing is, aku bukannya kreatif sangat nak mengajar ni, setakat nak arah2 and marah budak2 boleh la. 
First 2 days of the semester dah diperkenalkan dengan beberapa subjek, yang aku kira agak mencabar kali ni. Being a student I should be more advance than others and take every opportunities to learn and become a useful person. There's nothing to be proud of if I have bad attitude and low in thinking skills. Untuk lebih bersedia, aku perlulah berkongsi ilmu dengan orang, and mintak ajar dari diorang juga.. 

This time around pun ada saja masalahnya, even in the first week of the year. This all about relationship problem lah..what else. But I think this is not the prior problem lah to be think of. Let bygone be bygone. Apa yang berlaku ada hikmahnya, as people always say, langit tak selalunya cerah. Its not fair for me to blame anyone for causing this to happened, because ini dah ketentuanNya. For me its too personal to talk about it here. Let it just be buried in together with the memories. I don't care dan tidak akan pernah care pasal itu lagi. 

I know this year onward will be tiring one for me, but hopefully I can still feel the interesting part of the learning and teaching process. Meeting people and children, dealing with works that keep on piling up everyday, membuatkan aku stress je. Ini lah kerja yang menguji tahap kesabaran aku. penat tu jangan cakap lah, semua orang penat. Tapi apa boleh buat. I have to be strong and be positive as much as I can be. I want to learn from my previous mistake lah, aku nak lebih kerja dari berangan, sometimes I feel like aku ni lembab and lambat untuk sedar. Have to do some homework and study before depart to the class and to the school soon. 

Along with the crap works, nak jugak lah berasa sihat and feel great kan. So macam aku cakap lah, nak exercise banyak2, and banyakkan rehat, 

so that aku boleh save energy for work right. 

Anyway, I try my best to get use with the present situation and hopefully I can bear with it till I graduate. Ya Allah permudahkanlah every urusan aku. Oh yeah, I also would like to spend some time writing poetry and do everything yang aku suka lah. Baca novel banyak sangat boleh buat rasa macam nak muntah. BUt its fun thing to do. I always have this strange feeling since I minat membaca, whenever dah nak habiskan satu novel tu, saat tu lah feel like "Why am I reading this crap?" pfft.. Nevertheless, I hope I still have time for all these thing. Planning sangat lah mudah. Bila buat, tuhan saje yang tahu rasa malasnya macam mana. 

Talk soon.