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You just dunno

Dear blog,
Just stopping by to say hello and wish everyone a  double happiness during this first week of the year 2013.
Hope we can still see each other and hang out for good.
Anyway, I'll be back in IPg tomorrow, and I hope this coming semester will be a nice one for me. That's it! bye

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Change for the better

Dear blog, 

I was quite dizzy this morning....up to the afternoon  I felt like vomiting....

2012 is nearly come to an end. Ok let me put this way, aku harap sepanjang tahun ini, aku dah buat yang terbaik, untuk diri aku, mak ayah dan juga orang sekeliling....Aku pohonkan sekali lagi kepada Allah supaya hari-hari mendatang akan ada sinar baru buat aku, untuk aku terus membaiki diri, membetulkan kesalahan aku, dan moga aku masih lagi berada di jalan yang lurus dan diredhai Allah. Apa yang penting dalam hidup ini ialah, aku dapat menunaikan tanggungjawab aku sabagai seorang anak dan hamba kepada Allah. Masih banyak yang aku perlu lakukan bagi menjadi seorang mukmin yang cemerlang. Sebagai seorang manusia, aku tidak terlepas dari berbuat dosa, dosa kepada ibu bapa, pada adik beradik, dosa pada kawan-kawan, dan paling aku rasa malu ialah pada Tuhan yang satu. Kita tidak dijanjikan hidup selama-lamanya, dan wajib bagi kita untuk mati. Dan ini lah yang paling aku takutkan. Sebelum aku pergi aku perlukan satu perubahan besardalam hidup aku. Tapi aku masih tak kuat, tiap kali aku ingin melakukan sesuatu, pasti ada ujian yang datang. Dan ini betullah dar apa yang orang cakap, Allah menguji kita terhadap perkara yang kita ingin lakukan, samada kita bersungguh-sungguh atau tidak. Aku harap, bibir ini akan terus mengukir kalimah syahadah dan terus mengikat tali iman didada. Cuti bulan 12 ini telah aku usahakan dengan membantu mak dirumah, mak  yang dah uzur, perlu bagi aku sebagai anak tunggal memberi sepenuh perhatian padanya. Rugilah pada mereka yang tak dapat berbakti kepada ibu bapa mereka. Aku tak mahu menyesal di kemudian hari. Sekiranya aku tidak dapat memberikan mak dan ayah wang dan kekayaan sekali pun, aku harap dengan membantu meringankan beban mereka pun sudah memadai. Wahai Allah yang telah menciptakan sekalian makhluk, berilah aku peluang untuk terus berbakti kepada kedua ibubapa disamping kekal teguh pada taliMu...Bagi hari-hari yang akan datang....moga satu sinar kebahagiaan akan menunggu aku...Thanks for this life ya Allah....Thanks for the rahmat that you give me...

‎"To tell you the truth, If He’s tested you greatly, He loves you dearly." — Unknown. 

And Alhamdulillah for that ♥

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Sundae....

Dear blog,

2012 is about to come to an end. I'd like to take the opportunity to thank all my friends and family for the happiness we shared together all this while. Next year is going to be a hectic time for me again and I have to adapt to a new situation. I also have to not to expect things on a silver platter but to always learn the hard way because this would mean I will be sharpening the saw. I want to be a contributor of ideas rather than a user. 

Usually people will spend their time to review what they've been doing during the year, but for me its kinda boring. Haha...Though would find sometime to review 2012.

As you can see, the Koala is like holding a gun...LOL~

I named him Stevie..."howaya doin' mate?"

Yesterday I went out to meet a friend. She's in her semester break and would probably going back to Australia again early February next year. 

She brought me few souvenirs and I like them very much^^ 

she's truly a good friend!

We spent our day at the nearby kepC eating our breakfast and lunch together. I brought some old school magazines so we could reminisce the old days in school back then. We talked about the teachers we hated and loved the most, stories of some of the backstabbing friends, and some few others stories of our teenage dreams 

during the school days.

I had no chance to meet the rest of our 5zuhrah's family, but I was happy though to meet her. Some of our brothers and sisters are still struggling for their final exam, so they wont make it if we would have our family gathering this Dec. Just HOPING that I can still see and meet them all next year. 

Toodles...

Have a great weekend!

My Precious one

Dear blog, 

This is Ummu Hanny Balqisy. She'll be 3 years old this coming January and her top most favorite things are; 1. her granny 'apah' instead calling my mother 'opah' or 'nenek' she's comfortably calling her granny as 'apah'. 2. Her mum and dad of course...  3. Rambutan.... 4. me, her uncle... "chu Mamat"  5. pens, picture books and colours as well.

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Mum, me and my sister..

She is an active girl and one of the funniest and sweetest little girls in the world. She likes to go outside of the house helping her apah cleaning the leaves and she loves rambutan so much. Actually she doesn't know how to pronounce 'rambutan' axactly as it should be, instead she just go with the last syllable 'tan'. Whenever she sees her apah 'kait' the rambutan, she'd yell from the house, and says "apah...buah tan....!!". I still can hear her cute voice echoing inside my ears. She learns very well and quite amazingly she does everything herself. We just taught her once and she managed to do things herself, like putting on her shoes, identifying correctly which one is the right and the left, and she can differentiate quite a number of things now. That means I can't cheat on her anymore. Pfftt..

Hanny also likes to cheer everybody up with her smile and laughter. You know, although she's only 2 years old, she can recognize people pretty good. She continually progressed further than we ever expected. She can run, talk a little bit, dance, talking with her grandpa on the phone. 

She loves her grandpa so much. She must have been missing him since my father went to Sabah last month and probably will come back next week. My father used to taught her Zikrullah, touched a lil bit on prayer, and now she continues to learn them from her mum. My sister taught her to recite Al-fatihah, Al-ikhlas and few others surah too. She enjoyed reciting it so much. AND not to forget, Hanny doesn't really care about cartoon, she likes to watch Nat Geo along with her granny apah, and me as well. We live in kampung where we can easily see birds, monkeys, and few others, this eventually help to boost Hanny's mind. Rather than watching them on Tv, it is very good to let her see with her own eyes. right..?

Anyway,..

I really wanted to spend more time with her as I possibly could as well lend a hand with her care. Soon I will be in Ipoh to start a new life there. I'll miss her. 

That's just a bit about my niece Hanny, hope I can talk more about her in the future.

Talk soon, bye!

Stop here for a minute or so and listen to what I have to say

Dear blog...

I don't really know how to begin, where to start, what to say.....it seems so wrong to me.

All this while, I just being the type of person that I have always been. Always, after something terrible had happened to me I'll have this big question, "where have I been wrong?"... As a normal person, I experience hard and good times...I personally think that the 'wanted-to-be-a-perfectionist' thing isn't very helpful either. Sometimes I can consider myself as a mean, and egoistic type of person who wanting perfection in life until I forgot that nothing in this world is perfect. 

To become a perfectionist type of working machine sometimes is really tiring and doesn't work at all. I am a human being after all, often forget things, do  feel bad if I can't do best in lief, and forget things easily. I don't like to forget things because I don't like to give excuses. Nobody like excuses. (Except for reasonable excuses) It is just lame and so not appropriate at all. However, I did give excuses sometimes. Hopefully I won't do it again. Its just the same when it comes to my social life, where I often forgot to take care of other people's feelings...

I don't know why I have this big mouth kinda thing. Really pissing me off. Though, I'm not the kind of person who always running around like mice whenever I see problems. There's nothing wrong with it right?.. But what I really stress out about is, I may not be able to do things right, to achieve better, or even I might fail....sometimes I doubt myself...I feel angry, anxious, and...throwing tantrums all the times...this actually not because of the problems, but because I can't do it. I feel useless. What is wrong with me!!?? I have to keep strong and motivate myself no matter how the ups and downs are. If this plain grounds scare the hell out of me, then I won't be able to face the real world. The world doesn't go with my expectation all the time. I can run, but I can't escape from problems unless I face them. 

Everything in this world happened with a reason. I'm not alone. If I say I'm suck, actually there's a lot people out there even more sucker than me. Grow up! and face it. Be grateful. Live your life!! Okay! I can bear it, trust me. I'm happy for being like this, for who I am. Just need to be careful next time and improve myself a little bit more. I can do it. Just stay strong and be sensible. We're different, you're different. So What the hell are you afraid of, each person is gifted with talents and advantages..make use of the talent you have. I try to give myself a chance, not once but many times already. 

This is not a big problem helloo..wake up!! The thing is, I need to live with it and accept it with an open arms. Deserve it. I need to learn to accept my weaknesses and try to understand why things happen, and find solutions, so that I can improve myself to the better. That's it! Whatever things that will happen in the future, try to handle it well. Stay calm..

This was it...in about two hours ago the answer I have been dying to know had finally been revealed. Guess what? I did it quite well, and feel 'OKAy' about it. I don't care how much people strive for their's but I do care about mine. I need to work hard next time and try not to be so 'berlagak sombong'. Anyway, let us just forget about it. All in all I have did my best and still the results are good and be happy about it.

 All I wanted to say is, I'm so grateful and thank you to Allah for His blessing, not to forget, to mak and ayah for their doa and blessing as well, thank you sooo much....For my beloved friends, who always be there for me and support one and another during our hectic time, thank you so much. Let us be together and sail through this Degree program until we graduate. I have to bear in mind that I want to be an educator who not only teach but to become a source of inspiration, and knowledge and of course to change the world's perspectives of looking at certain things. 'A great student lies on a great teacher'. Congratulations to me of course ^^ and to my friends, I believe that we can success in the future. Insyaallah.!

Till then. Good day people..

Its just thoughts

Dear blog, I always wanted to write something educational..
something that people can refer to and would be useful to them. 
Especially for those who struggling with language or whatsoever. The thing is I myself still struggling and even worst you know. I was thinking of sharing a bit of information about how to write a composition, or how to start a conversation or even sharing notes on a particular subject.
So much to think of, and really, I wanted to do it so badly. Oh yeah, why don't I start of by doing book review.. and I'm pretty much good about it. I can talk about the characters, plot, the symbolism..the writer...etc...and try to relate it to my daily life or what not..
I always go for humanistic novel  or even mysterious kind of thing. Not to forget, I will pick up the one with 'The Number One Bestseller' and of course vintage books..
These books offer me a great deal with English language and most of the writers write very well.. and plus what more can you find in these kind of books anyway?. Its so fascinating reading novels during my free time.
Its like engaging myself into a new world and giving me a new perspective of life. So for me, its really important to be careful of choosing which genres that suit me the best as might not want to waste time reading rubbish. 
So I guess I have to plan very carefully of what I wanted to do and have the ideas at the back of my mind before I can start writing anything.  Planing is easy, but when it comes to do it, you'll know how hard it is. Anyway, its good to have this kind of thoughts in mind, it makes me excited and wanted to do more in life.

Till then, have a nice day people..

^^ After sometimes...

Dear blog, 
Its been like forever since my last post and up till now I still dunno what I was doing at home during the holidays.
Nothing much really...
I really wanted to write everything down, single handedly... I really did!
BUt guess what? The Mr Time just won't lend me a hand to write them.
There were just too much to do and to squeeze this little blog onto the list just seemed impossible.
this morning, I sat in the back garden drinking tea. It was a damp grey Dec morning, even the sun won't show itself. not a glimpse...
I'm quite sad because most of the time I spent was at home with my family although I had longed for it since. Since my friend Rizal had an accident and had a broken ribs, I can't go anywhere with him also the rest of my friends. Some of them gone back to study already, seems like I stuck here forever. 
This oddness is telling me that I will have a boring holidays.... Though I try to tell myself that everything was fine.